EYES&EARS - - act of kindness

this is my 2nd blog under this section . .

it's actually based on something i just saw today, March 30th 2009

ACT OF KINDNESS

today, i rode the bus home. i crossed the bridge in front of Le Meridien to get to the other side of Jl. Jend. Sudirman. under the bridge, there's this woman. i've seen her two times already. both times that i saw her, she was wearing the same flowered dress, well, more like "daster". she wasn't dirty but everyone around knows that she's mm . . crazy because she plays with old Aqua cups and spits out the plastic incessantly. she doesn't disturb anybody. she is JUST THERE.

now today, i saw a 640 bus passed. its route is Ps. Minggu-Tn.Abang (pardon my expertise on public transportation :) i ride the bus a lot these days, and i tend to observe). as usual, the "kenek" -- i really have no clue what "kenek" is in english, sorry -- got off the bus and yelled its route to get more passengers, but what i hadn't expected was that he approached the crazy woman and handed her a Rp1000 bill. he just put it in her hand and got back in his bus. i looked at him. first, he didn't see me but as the bus passed by, he saw me. i smiled and he smiled, SINCERELY.

ok. so maybe this doesn't sound too exciting. it doesn't make you cry your eyes out or anything. it didn't make me weep, either. but it made me feel EASIER about my day.

Rp1000 is not a lot. it doesn't really buy anything these days. but the way, he approached her and had the realization that someone else needed it more than him, that deserves a standing ovation. taking just a bit of your time and attention to give it to someone else, that's BIG.

i'm a christian, and it says in my bible, that true GIVING is when you give out of your own lacking, and that's exactly what that "kenek" man did.

the other thing i noticed was how EASY that smile he gave me was. it was as if "it's alll gooood". it wasn't those cheap smiles guys give girls that look like he just wants a piece of your ass *those nasty smiles. UGH.* it was SINCERE. and that's rare to find these days.

kalo kita denger kata "kebaikan" or "kindness", the images that come to mind may be of giving millions to charity, or going to a poor section of the country to adopt a needy kid, or donating to an orphanage, etcetc. these great images are actually what make us put off being nice.

i often think "ahh. baru bisa ngasihh sgini, ntar aj lahh klo bisa ngasii more" yadayadayada.

we forget that the littlest things MATTER.

even a smile, or a "thank you" can be meaningful.
in this day and age full of depression and hatred, those things can really turn it around.

so care,
show just how bright you truly shine.
smile once in a while, you don't know whose day you've just brightened.
plus, it's free. what harm could it possibly do?

be thankful. and show that you are :)

*i promise : tomorrow, i'll practice smiling nicely no matter how much i want to scream due to any stress in my life. just smile. that's it :)

i'm not trying to be a saint. don't mean to sound like one, either.

merely a girl trying to have more sincerity in this hypocritical world we're living in.

is that really too much?

hmm . .
what have you observed today?
any act of kindness of your own?
whose day have you brightened?


tell me.
i'd love to hear it.

l o v e ,

clarissa tracy priscilla.

L2C - - "have you really LIVED OUT LOUD!?"

L2C -- LISTEN TO CLARISSA
is a part of my blog in which i become the adviser of mankind :)
hahhaa.
*ok. lose the disbelief smile!

see me become wise.
it's awfully surprising and you might just admit HOW RIGHT i am.
or maybe i'll just give u a little something to ask yourselves.

get ready to be WOW'ed ;)

so . . question of the day . . .

"have you really LIVED OUT LOUD ? ?"

as some of you may know, today is the day of the SITU GINTUNG TRAGEDY, dimana sebuah tanggul besar udah jebol, and the water poured out to the houses and community nearby.

bad side about me : i'm ignorant at times. i don't really watch the news or read the newspapers. i think it's all too depressing. and you gotta admit, it actually is.

so the first time i heard about this tragedy was through my beloved lieutenant. through the phone. i was in my room, he was in Gresik. no images come to mind then. it was just another tragedy. sad things happen everyday. i don't mean to downplay it, but they do, don't they?

well. today, after work, i stopped by the tv at the waiting room area and watch the footage of what happened on the tragedy.

and there i was . with my eyes opened realizing the MAGNITUDE of the whole thing.

a house, a REAL HOUSE, a BIG HOUSE even, was swept, down on its knees by the water. there were nothing left. and my boss asked "ihh, gimana yaa klo ada yang tidur? orang2 pada lagi gak tau ada apa2 gt tiba2 kesapu aer. wahh gila ni!" it was just a simple remark. yet it opened my eyes.

i'm a smart girl *not to be cocky about it*. i know that death is something that noone knows about. you know it'll happen anyway, but nobody knows when it happens or where it happens, it's just THAT unpredictable.

and what i thought about was the people inside that house that got swept off by the water, and those who died today due to the tragedy, they HAD NO clue. they were probably just sleeping, or talking, or cooking, thinking that nothing's wrong and it's just another day and then BYARRRRRRRRR. it's over.

the question is . .
"have those people REALLY lived!?
have they fulfilled all that they want to?
have they really loved and been loved?
have they been the BEST that they could've been to their loved ones?
havae they been given 2nd chances!?"

and so i look back at myself, and i asked the same question. i realize that the answer is no. i HAVEN'T LIVED OUT LOUD. i haven't GONE OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE. i CAN DO MORE. i HAVEN'T USED THE 2ND CHANCES I'VE BEEN GIVEN. and this makes me so grateful because i KNOW that i still have a bit more time to make this a bit better.

i know one day it's my turn to "go" and when that day happens, i just hope that people can say "well, she HAS LIVED OUT LOUD"

ask yourselves,
HAVE YOU LIVED OUT LOUD!?
HAVE YOU BEEN ALL THAT YOU CAN BE!?

only you can answer that.
be thankful for another day that you have though.
it's PRECIOUS.
this sounds like a cliche i know.
i'm not much of a wise person to be a source, you may think.

but really.
trust me on this one . .


opinions?
thoughts?

post 'em

p e a c e,

clarissatracypriscilla

an itty bitty breaking news >> kangen pacar.

soni bolin steven simanjuntak

he's the boyfie ;)

LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP bites me in the ass!

it sucks. .

i freakin' miss him . . . . *huhhu.
k a n g e n k a m u

ihiks :'(

sukur2 kalo dy bisa blog gw *LIKE HE PROMISED* -- scr wktunya tersita buat main rudal. ihiikss. hoh! :'(

* be good yaahhh syg . jgn mcm2.

l o v e y o u

EYES&EARS - - d u a l i s m

when you see the headline,
EYES&EARS
it means that you'll be seeing some writing about things and stuff that i've observed lately.
they're the ones i SEE. they're the ones i HEAR about.
don't you worry. i guarantee it's not boring.
i can SPARK UP even the dullest subject.
bet your money on it ;)

well, let's talk about something that really really is fascinating to me .

DUALISM

unfamiliar?
does it seem like i'm trying to be smart? hehhe. well i'm not.
it really does amaze me. so. .

let's look that word up. i got the help of dictionary.com --thank youu. .
and chose 2 definition

du·al·ism

The condition of being double; duality. Philosophy The view that the world consists of or is explicable as two fundamental entities, such as mind and matter. Psychology The view that the mind and body function separately, without interchange. Theology The concept that the world is ruled by the antagonistic forces of good and evil. The concept that humans have two basic natures, the physical and the spiritual.

		dualism
		noun
		the doctrine that reality consists of two basic opposing elements, often taken to be mind and matter (or mind and body), or good and evil

from wikipedia indonesia :

Dualisme adalah konsep filsafat yang menyatakan ada dua substansi. Dalam pandangan tentang hubungan antara jiwa dan raga, dualisme mengklaim bahwa fenomena mental adalah entitas non-fisik.

ok. so well, that seems so serious. i won't touch the subject of psychology or theology. it's not my expertise.

let's use the simplest one . .

dualism -- the condition of being double

ok, clarissa. why are you RAMBLING ON AND ON ABOUT THIS DUALISM THING ?

well. because . .

clarissa tracy priscilla dictionary :

i go to the LONDON SCHOOL OF PUBLIC RELATIONS di bilangan sudirman. you can say, it's THE part of the city. tall buildings, executives, well let's just say, if you need a photo that has Jakarta viewed as the glorified upbeat metropolitan country's capital, you can take it in the Sudirman area.

soo . . DUALISM ? ? ? ? ?

'kay.
dari perspective dan sudut pandang gw . .

* 3 ALPHARDS passing by side to side with penjual kacang rebus and bemo-bemo reyot. THAT'S DUALISM.

* everyday, i see the same beggar with skin infection on the LSPR bridge, and everyday i see hundreds of BLACKBERRY being used. . THAT'S DUALISM

* showing off that Rp 600.000 TOPSHOP shirt and seeing a newspaper man trying to sell the day's paper for Rp 500 (noone bought it by the way) . . THAT'S DUALISM

* millions of dollars spent for election campaigns and people getting killed while getting their BLT money (Rp. 250.ooo/ family) . . THAT'S DUALISM

* complaining about other artist whose dance is too VULGAR while having plenty of wives . . THAT'S DUALISM

* jadi petinggirakyat tapi nggunain bahu jalan dengan *ngiung ngiung* cop bodyguards ketika macet . . THAT'S DUALISM


* putting thousands of posters of your "full of promises" face, *it's ugly by the way*, on the streets to get elected, and SLEEPING during meetings when you're already chosen, damn. YOU'RE A DAMN DUALIST.

i'm a student by day and a teacher by night,
* personal confession : males2an blajar di kampus, tapi bete ngeliat murid males, I'M A DUALIST.


so.
what am i really saying?
i guess. DUALISM is not really unfamiliar for us. we see it everyday. maybe we are a dualist everyday.

INDONESIA, to me, is a dualistic country all on its own. *thoughtful smile*

i don't think it's either bad or good. no judgment here.

this blog is not meant to offend.
simply to share a girl's point of view.

you agree?
disagree?

pour it out.

p e a c e ,

clarissatracypriscilla

LOVEBOX - - f i r s t l o v e

LOVEBOX is a section in my blog that talks about the never-ending-discussed subject,
L O V E

this is the 1st post of this section . .

and since it's the 1st post, what better subject than . .

FIRST LOVE ?

"nothing can compare to your first true love" -- Mariah Carey, "Don't Forget About Us"

well.
this is what i think.

when the words "FIRST LOVE" is said, there are a couple of things that come to mind :

• a young girl and boy of age 6 holding hands . .
• that first real boyfriend/ girlfriend you have in high school or college
• the one that made you feel like you've never felt before, even though maybe this person isn't really your FIRST boyfriend/ girlfriend.

well. i choose to use the 3rd definition from the above choices.

i think that person who makes you feel BRAND NEW, who gives you your first "butterflies", who feels different when they kiss you, i think that's your FIRST LOVE.

so now, that we've accomplished what FIRST LOVE is let's think about Ms. Carey's statement.

is your FIRST LOVE really really unbeatable?
can NOTHING compare to it?

well.
i think to some extent, yes. your first love will be remembered. it's the one that you can't forget about. BUT, it doesn't mean that it IMPACTS you forever. seringkali, FIRST LOVE is just a memory to laugh and smile about. diingat, bukan berarti berefek, right?


personally,
menurut gw, beruntung bangetlah orang-orang yang bisa end up with their first love.
orang-orang yang first love-nya memang bener2 UNBEATABLE and INCOMPARABLE.

but what about others?
what about those whose first love left with only mere memories and heartaches?

is FIRST LOVE unbeatable and irreplaceable for them also?

hmm.
give me your insights .


tell me what you think ..

l o v e,

clarissa tracy priscilla :)

anything and everything before we go on . . .

so. before the journey gets longer for you guys, i just want to inform you of some things :

1. this blog will be written mostly in english *cough* if you're my students, enjoy the practice ;D! but some words will be in bahasa indonesia, so vice versa, if you don't speak the language, just bear with it. ;P --just think of it this way, everyone LEARNS.

* hmmph. my blog is already educational. hahhhaa

2. as you go on and on reading my blogs, you will see that the titles will be put under different categories . for example : LOVEBOX -- is for the blogs regarding, you know, LOVE stuff. hehhe :)

3. i promise to update my blog everyday. i'll try my hardest :)

4. i made this about a year ago. but this blog is just really ALIVE recently due to an AWESOME ASSIGNMENT from my PR n Publicity lecturer, Mr. Silih A. W. you guys' comments will determine my grade! so please. COMMENT! :)

love you so.

and enjoy.

*clarissatracypriscilla

whose heart are you looking into?

so . . .

WHOSE HEART IS IT THAT YOU'RE LOOKING INTO IN THIS BLOG ?

it's me.
a girl named CLARISSA TRACY PRISCILLA.

some say i'm wise.
some say i'm dumb.
i'll declare a peace, and ADMIT, that i'm both . .
it just depends on when you see me.

i was born almost 19 years ago. in palembang. i grew up in north jakarta and moved to colorado, USA. then, i got back here to jakarta, indonesia. i've been in situations where i feel like i've conquered the world and also been in some where i feel like i'm just a down-and-out loser.

i'm thankful for the tears and pain that has been blessed unto me . . because they make me who i am today.

i love to eat. i just do. i hate myself for this fact, but again, i DO.
anything with cheese drives me crazy :)

i laugh at myself. i think my stupidity is part of my charm**.
however, i DON'T PLAY STUPID. n those who do, get on my damn nerves ;\

i love surprises *well the good ones, i do .

i am BATAKNESE. n PROUD of it.

i eat chocolate only when i'm in the mood for it .

i already know who i am and the judgements that have been made are their insecurities.

i give myself the UTMOST RESPECT .

i've been to hell and back and now i'm ready to wish on my stars.

i make mistakes and i acknowledge them.

i care too much and fall too hard but it's all worth it because regardless of the trauma, my garden is still blooming.

i speak everytime i stand so i am not forgotten.

i have already accomplished what you thought i never would. i did it all on my own & i'll be damned if anyone tries to take it from me.

i'm something profound and when i speak, the gates of heaven open up so my angels can listen to my words, that turn silver to gold.

i am just wonderfully chaotic.

and take your time, you'll learn to love me .

peace,
clarissatracypriscilla .